Memory lane

I fall deep
into a moment of memory
I am taken back
but with a wiser inner being

I think of you
I remember what I thought of you before
but no more
I know now, I was also there
I was part of it too
It wasn't only you

I'll love you forever
That was the lie we told
We believed it was the truth
In that moment, we believed our lie
It made us feel so safe inside
We could hide.
Yes, we could hide
We could forget for a little while
That we were all alone in life
That we were not enough for ourselves

In the past you were to blame
I was innocent
My heart was pure, my conscience clear
Your acts destroyed the balance
Your deeds took away the love
You were the abuser
I was the victim

Life's lessons enlighten me now
A dance is for two
You danced with me,
But I danced with you too
Until we were both so tired
Still, we continued to dance

Love is simply the word we used
It was the perfect tool
For you to do what you wanted to do
So that you could deepen your hatred for you
And I needed to feel worthless too
So I allowed you to continue